mbv just changed my life
my love for mbv started with my brother showing me loveless and everything before that. the self-titled hadn't come out yet, but i was well acquainted with it once it had. so i loaded loveless onto my philips gogear 2gb mp3. this took place in my childhood home, so i would've been 8 years old?
it became a constant in my life. shoegaze became a big deal to me, but it was basically just my bloody valentine. loud fuzzy soundscapes pumping through my ears and becoming an anchor throughout my upbringing - living in a nightmarish dysfunctional and abusive household that i was too young to understand and never should have experienced. an unfair hand.
i turned to mbv when i stargazed with my new friends at uni or to pass the time or to doze off to or to play in the background while i was drugged out of my mind or drinking nights away or to share this song with my partner of maaaany years or to end every arc or significant and insignificant period of my life with
to listening to them everytime i wanted to be in touch with my personal reality. that despite everything, i am here, still breathing and i still exist
then i saw them live with my buddy this month!!! and it was fucking awesome. can't believe i saw them and it was so beautiful and life-affirming and NECESSARY. it's been a part of me from very young and it feels insane to be watching them at my age because i didn't think i'd still be alive after this long. the gig healed a lot of old and stubborn wounds.
mbv is holding my heart together and now i feel like a more complete person
also saw j mascis that was pretty cool